Tuesday, February 19, 2008

déja vu

Edited below for more marketing.

Back before the speech thing and the house thing, I spent several evenings quite nauseous and my stomach felt grumbly. I knew there was absolutely no way I was pregnant, and it didn't feel like pregnant nausea anyways. It felt like stress nausea, just like it felt when I was on strike in 2002 right after I quit smoking and just before my panic and anxiety hit an all-time high.

I couldn't help but wonder today, as I made phone call after phone call to mortgage brokers and stagers and our realtor, bank and local mental health agency, etc. etc., and crunched number after number (in between urgent trips to the bathroom with a sick Swee'pea in tow), if we aren't gluttons for punishment. Because our lives were plenty stressful enough just living a two-year-old, both of us starting new jobs, and dealing with the drama that seems to arise every single frickin' day from our mentally ill family member (who, I may add, is STILL in transitory housing as she has been since she showed up on our porch), drama that reached a denouement this weekend, the same weekend when we voluntarily chose to bring a heck of a lot more stress into our lives over the next few months.

I called Sugar D at his work to discuss this very question and we both agreed that it's scary and we've had moments of wondering if it's all a big mistake, but we have also both decided reasonably quickly and painlessly that oh well, we gotta try.

I have a very bad habit on this blog of writing all the boring details of my life and none of the interesting ones. My favourite bloggers put such craft and thought into every single post that sometimes I feel very inadequate.

Oh -- and I suppose this time is as good as any to share with you that Imagekind is now selling greeting cards. It's a brand new service and there are still kinks to be worked out, but now you don't have to spend a lot of money framing a print if you like my work, you can just buy a card or a box of cards. At the moment if you buy a box of cards, you can only buy them with one image, but I have requested that they let people choose a variety of images so hopefully they'll make that available soon. As with their prints, Imagekind's printing and paper quality for the cards is stellar. I promise not to turn this into a nasty marketing blog, but every once in a while I gotta share. I've also been adding more pictures here and there.

Edited to add: I just got an email from Imagekind with their latest promotion: 25% off framing until Feb. 26. Just enter the promo code OSCARS2008. Maybe I should buy some framed pieces for the possibility of a someday-maybe show?

Poll: Do you want to know about these promotions from Imagekind? Or should I just shut the hell up?

15 comments:

Beck said...

I get nauseated VERY easily. And then I'm always, always convinced that I'm pregnant AGAIN.
It's SCARY! Moving is SCARY! But exciting.

Alpha DogMa said...

I'm get sympathy nausea on your behalf. It will all work out as intended. This is my mantra when it comes to job interviews and house purchases. I like to absolve myself of blame or accountablity.

Mad Hatter said...

Sin, you are one of the most interesting writers out here so please keep doing whatever it is you're doing b/c I like it.

BTW, after my little parody the other day I was trying to imagine a post where I simply list authors and bloggers and have people connect the lines to whose style best suits who--you know Bea=Austen; Bon=Emily Brontë, that kind of thing. I'm still trying to figure out which writer I want to assign to you but I tend to think of you as the blogosphere's Mrs. Dalloway, moving along through her day in a stream of conscious way. Now mind you, you are WAY easier to read than the actual novella so don't go drawing comparisons there.

Mimi said...

New job for you? What, did I miss that? Ack. And for the nausea and the stress, I know where you're coming from. Here it is 6:05am, and I've been trolling my bloglines since 4:30, too stressed out to sleep. We should do yoga. Or something.

Suz said...

Sometimes I wonder why I don't gravitate to the poorly written blogs. I would just feel so much better about myself.

Kyla said...

I have to agree with Mad. I always enjoy reading you.

I hope the anxiety passes, Sin. But it is scary, all that upheaval at once. My stomach has been kerflopping lately, too.

Aliki2006 said...

I love reading you, too, so very much.

Of course it's all stressful--of course you're going to have moments of cold feet. But it will all be worth it--press on!

Mouse said...

I can identify and sympathize on this! The past couple of years have been one thing after another, some of it brought on by ourselves (e.g., moving to Canada and then back to the States), some of it unexpected (e.g., strings of viruses and having a kid). I'm ready for a lull; hopefully we'll both get one soon.

kgirl said...

Um, if moving, two new jobs, a mentally-ill family member and a new web-business is boring, I shudder to think what you life is like when things are interesting.

You SHOULD get pregnant!

ewe are here said...

Moving is a whole bunch of things: scary, exciting, tiring, thrilling, hard work, but so worth it in the end...

Cloud said...

Mimi is right. Yoga helps for stress. Now if I'd just find the time to do it...

I for one like to hear about your picture promotions, etc. Because one of these days I'm going to have an empty wall again and then I'll buy one of your pictures. In the meantime, I might go get some cards. I use way more cards now that I need to send people photos of Pumpkin!

nomotherearth said...

Are you really moving? To TO?? That would be great! And I echo Kgirl that you should get pregnant too. All or nothin', baby!

I like your writing. If you're feeling down, read my posts - their not well-crafted at all. You'll realize just how good your writing is.

nomotherearth said...

Ok, so I just had time to read your other posts...Not TO. I'm an idiot. Or jsut Mummy Dummy. I don't know which...

Lisa b said...
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Lisa b said...

This housing market is VERY scary. After we bought our house and paid less than twenty grand over asking the banker would annoy me most nights moaning that he overpaid.

I don't mind the updates